I was so down last night. Ever since I had this three-way translocation come up I kind of feel like I don’t know who I am. It doesn’t help that I quit my job a few months ago and have been on the road all summer with my husband. There really hasn’t been anything “normal” in our lives for a couple of months. I am looking forward to being back home next week and staying put for a while while we figure out the next steps. It will be nice to get back into some type of rhythm, even though I don’t know what that will look like yet. I’m missing structure right now…odd to say it, but it’s exactly what I need right now.
Today my husband decided not to take a job in the Bay area that he was offered and I feel a little guilty… But it’s true, it’s not the right time to move… not until we figure this all out. I think that egg donation may be tough on us and I’d like to still have friends and family around for it. If in a year something comes up again than I’ll be more open I think (assuming we get pregnant quickly). I have a hard time putting myself first sometimes but in this case I’m glad that he did.
Today my period started… a few days early actually than what was expected. 
So I guess I will start the BC pills tonight even though I’ll probably need to take them again next month. Once we pick an egg donor I have to go on the pill in order to sync my cycle with the egg donor’s. I’ll go into more details once we get there.
-H
